Struggle bus Monday: Red Dead Redemption 2.

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If you know me, you know I love me some Red Dead Redemption. The original Red Dead, like any other game published under Rockstar, will be a shoe for game of the year nominee.

The makers of the Grand Theft Auto series have a long and lustrous history of providing players with countless of entertainment, side-mission and compelling character development. Giving its loyal fan-base enough lubricant to be cleared for landing, Rockstar, by my account, always delivers the A1 steak sauce to the gaming community.

I’m only a few hours in. (the game was released Friday, as of today). I’m blown away.

Stay tuned for the full review.

Can’t wait?…checkout these youtube accounts, These guys have sick walk-throughs’ on their channels.




Struggle bus Monday: Friday the 13th the game.

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All aboard the struggle everybody. Today’s entry on Struggle Bus Monday will have to go under the “guilty pleasure” checkbox of my gamer bucket list. Simply because, it is game that has an ideal concept, especially, if the game is based on a movie and the hysteria surrounding the movie prompts you to obsessively check the releases date on said game; as if your waiting for the hot blonde to text back, after getting her number, only four hours ago. For example: Predator concrete jungle. Garbage.

Today’s game is: Friday the 13th the game. I know what your thinking–on paper: the concept behind this genius, and in truth, it is a decent game: minus the character flaws.

It’s like the Blair Witch of the gaming industry: so much hype for a big let down. Clunky game play, terrible server connection; the A.I. for the counselors is none existent, I mean, you’ll see them hopping in and out of the same window. (clearly within sight of Jason).  The developer put a lot of thought in the environment and it shows, however, it still don’t make up for some failings in this game. The big thing is the multiplayer, where you can stalk and reenact classic  kill scenes, to perfect from across the globe–if you can get server to work.

Check out the video below…these guys are dope.




The most dangerous animal

Man-made dogma

    Man is god and vice versa, at least that’s what we as men would like to believe. To be in control, to be all-knowing, to be omnipotent; to truly be the lord of all he surveys . See also The Male Disease. I talked about our obsession with male authority and being conditioned  to act like other men, is the catalyst of our inevitable downfall. But, that’s not the whole truth. The truth coincides with our incubated selective ignorance about ourselves and roles we play in the world. Men, try as we might, can’t escape the undeniable truth, of being in control without be controlling, shaping a reality without the necessity of physical violence; to navigate the sublime differences of the fairer sex without resorting to violating her body, both physical and sexually.

        A man’s true test lies not in the conquering new avenues in the business world, nor quenching the thirst of the male ego, nor the slaying  of the furriest and wettest of his female counterpart’s nether regions, in mass volume. No. The test is himself. Mastery of himself. However, mastery begins with alleviating self-deception.

 Gods of the new world.

              ” I mean, I’m just tired of being wrong all the time just because I’m a guy. I mean how many times can everybody tell you that you’re the oppressive, prejudiced enemy before you give up and become the enemy.

     I mean a male, chauvinist pig isn’t born, he’s made, and more and more of them are being made by women. After long enough you just rollover and accept the fact that you’re a sexist, bigoted, insensitive, crude, cretinist cretin. Women are right. You’re wrong. You get used to the idea. You lived down to expectations. Even if the shoe doesn’t fit, you’ll shrink to fill it. I mean, in a world without god aren’t mothers the new god? The last sacred unassailable position. Isn’t motherhood the last perfect magical miracle? But a miracle isn’t possible for men, and maybe men say they’re glad not to give birth, all the pain and blood, but really that’s so much sour grapes. For sure, men can’t do anything near as incredible. Upper body strength, abstract thought, phalluses-any advantage men appear to have are pretty token. You can’t hammer a nail with a phallus. Women are already born so far ahead ability-wise. The day a man can give birth, that’s when we can start talking about equal rights.”

                                                                             Chuck Palahniuk.  Choke

It’s so true, man is own worse enemy; we’re chasing a shadow: called woman. It’s no wonder the notoriety on the rise of rape culture awareness is at an all-time high, but it’s nothing new. The so-called early settlers ravaged the current United States, with war and disease, and they raped. They raped the women indigenous to this land, and the children, being reject from both cultures, were made either into slaves or glorified tour guides. Helping the barbarian settlers navigate the through the Louisiana Territory.

In the 18th Century, a madame had no choice but to become a prostitute, if she was defiled early during her courtship. Just like that, thrown out on the street because she wanted intimacy before the appropriate time. The typical calling card of a terrified man: Violated by one man, ridiculed and persecuted by stranger; abandoned by another man; abused/ murder by another. (i.e. Jack the Ripper).

Rape is supposed be about establishing power and dominance over women, and with I find really humorous, not the rape but the fact that the poor fuck is trying to regain something, he never had to begin with. At that’s what the crime shows broadcast. All the truly horrific sex crimes are almost always perpetrated by men. Men, whom have been emasculated by mother or an old girlfriend. Men, whom don’t possess the social iquity to decipher between “playing hard to get” and “just saying no”. Men, whom mind has been poisoned into thinking that his must find into egocentric archetype, in order to be considered important.

     The veil of Macheesmo.

Women are god’s gift to the world: elegant, radiant; excelling in every avenue they put their minds–last but not least, child birth. A feat that men can never out due, not matter, how many points he scores, yachts he owns, novels he has written; trophies he has won, women he sleeps with; men he is in charge of and records he has a broken. All these accolades, pales in comparison, to bringing another life into this world. Thus, man must excel in all his endeavors in order to match the worth of a woman; Rockstars in theory; patronized man-child in reality.

“Masculinity is not about being the biggest, the fastest, the strongest, the one who sleeps with the most girls, and the one who has the most money. The one who has the most accomplishments is not the most masculine. In fact, it is often the men who covet these things most who are covering and compensating for the greatest insecurities. Let us revere the one who loves others deeply, loves himself deeply, and has a dream that he is inspired to live with and by and through. He is a man.

He does not stand unmoved or untouched in the face of truly moving experiences.

He does not judge the totality of his life or anyone else’s life by the totals on the scoreboard as the clock ticks down to zero.

He does not use money as a proxy for emotional connection nor material possessions as the measure of his self-worth.

He does not define his manhood by the number of women he has conquered.

He does not always fight fire with fire; sometimes he doesn’t need to fight at all.

He does not meet seriousness with silliness when it is seriousness that is required.

He does not take risks for risks’ sake, because he does not hide from his frailty, his mortality, or his humanity.

He does not pretend to know everything about anything, nor is he afraid to admit when he knows nothing about something.

And perhaps most important of all, he does not walk around thinking he’s The Man.

No, the masculine man goes through a journey, a process of self-discovery, and figures out what he needs to do to acquire the tools, knowledge, wisdom, grace, love, passion, and joy to pursue his destiny. His destiny is his dreams. Those may evolve over time, but in their pursuit, he is not breaking down anyone else or hurting anyone else. He is not at war with other people, conquering them. He is the one joining forces, searching for the win-win. He is the one who is lifting others up, inspiring others through his journey and his own process (in which he is finding ways to create value along the way). He is the hero of his own journey. And in so being, he is looking for every way to have the best relationships possible with his family, friends, his romantic partner, his colleagues, or his customers. He’s finding ways to be the best possible version of himself.

Masculinity is about discovering yourself and owning what you find. It’s about being kind to others, and pursuing your dreams with all the passion and energy you can muster. It’s about doing something that is meaningful to you that brings value to others. That’s how you build a legacy.”
― Lewis Howes, TheMask of Masculinity. 

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Author appreciation: Chuck Palahniuk

“I see all this potential, and I see it squandered. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables – slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don’t need. We’re the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our great war is a spiritual war… Our great depression is our lives. We’ve all been raised on television to believe that one day we’d all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars, be we won’t. We’re slowly learning that fact. And we’re very, very pissed off.”

Tyler Durden, Fight Club

I absolutely love the quote, because like most truths: the words remain relevant no matter the year, decade, or century. The words still withstand the test of time. Which is why I enjoy the writings of Chuck Palahnuik. Chuck Palahnuik has a way of demystifying the enchanted veil, in which the vast majority of society choose to view the world, through their own vague actualization, generalizing, rather understanding the individuals source of pain, reducing the taboo into stereotypical cliches.

People tend to live in their own fantasies, and thus, guilty of romanticizing human behavior, to the point of.  being reduced to chopped up Sunday School melodrama; Leaving the dysfunctional pieces that offers life’s greatest gems, out of the equation.

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Dishonored 2

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Hey everyone, today is “Struggle Bus Monday. And today, I’m showcasing my struggle of the week, with one of my favorite games: Dishonored 2. Though, I purchased the trilogy combo pack because it’s cheaper; I still would have doubled-down and bought the  single copy had the collector’s edition not been available.

Set in the city of Dunwall and Karnace, After being rescued following the assassination of her mother, Emily Kaldwin reclaims her rightful place as heir to the throne; only after the strategic planning by the royal protector, Corvo. Aiding with the help of the rebellion, Corvo was able reestablish order throughout the kingdom, after the defeat of the current Lord Regent: Hiram Burrows.

What I truly love and adore about the Dishonored franchise is, not only, the open world, rather it’s the lateral gameplay. Giving players the freedom to pick whichever approach works for them–choosing from an endless supply of options at your disposal, through the channels of free-roam gameplay. Whether or not you kill the antagonist’s loyal henchmen is strictly up to you. But where’s the fun in that.

The power you obtain from the interdimensional being called The Outsider, enhances gameplay so much; hence, my angst. Stringing together combos of transmorphic-telekinetic powers from the nether-realm, corresponding with with revolutionary army dress code/ weaponry with a retractable sword and a cross bow.

Below, are videos demonstrating a highlight of death from the youtuber “Stealthgamerbr”, by all means, if you love the game, watching this guy play may cause death by haterade posioning.




How to Write a Brilliant Blog Post per Week

I might have to dabble into this method; my technique, as of now, I basically one shot, one kill. And doing all the writing and editing, in one day.